Thursday, 30 October 2014

Holla Bitches!

So in two days it would have been exactly 2 months since I stopped writing on here. Those two months had their ups and downs.. although I must say getting over a certain someone was hard /// (or in fact is hard). It's a constant battle between my head and my heart, but something sparked me today; and just like that I snapped out of it again. So often I chose to ignore those small things I pick up which bothers me, (you know that feeling when you know somethings not completely transparent)... well I'm the master of feelings and when I feel, I know. So today I felt something which I didn't like, and instead of being upset about it, i'm actually really relieved.

And weirdly enough... just like that...

(in a non violent angry way)

Haven't had a good nights sleep in a long long while, (but I have a feeling tonight's going to be a nice long well deserved beauty rest... trust me I need it). 

I dropped my phone on the floor the other day (side effect of my trusted bestfriend, insomnia)... so now I have no phone. I rather like it, but how the f*ck am I going to order an uber now?? clueless...

Anyways.... so a quick update of what I've been obsessing over these past 2 months..


1. Seafood...

2. Rings rings rings...

3. Outfit of the days #ootd

4. Vietnamese cuisine

5. Last but not least... TEQUILAAAAA. slash anything with a nice hefty alcohol percentage is welcomed.



we all know it's true... stop bitching about it and expect less.


quit being a little bitch about life and enjoyyyyyy :) 


wait... this is definitely not an out.. bootycall? girls gotta do what a girls gotta do (yikes sorry mom)


stop letting people get to you... life's shitty enough, why waste it talking about shitty people?

Anyways, this is a rather long winded post. I'm hopefully going on holiday on sunday... gotta escape and let loose! Barcelona maybe?

What I'm listening to: Matoma & Nelsaan- Free Fallin Tropical Mojito Remix (John Mayer Tribute)


Monday, 1 September 2014

Ciao for Now Bitches

Hey guys, having nearly pressed the delete button on blogger, I decided that my html skills have pretty much disintegrated in my brain and if I were to remake this page layout (which as a former graphic design student am rater proud of) it would take me just about my lifetime to remake.

Its been a rather distracting month, (i officially hate August). And since its the beginning of a new month, I decided to disconnect myself from the outer world and work on what makes me happy (although writing to virtual people as yourself brings much pleasure to me.. I just want to wait it out long enough so people I actually know stop coming on here ie, page views dropping from 100 to 0 a day).

(just kidding)

So for now... (perhaps a day... two days... a week. a month... half a year idk),  I'm going to stop writing... and raging and put my diary to use. For those who have been following this for a while now, this used to be a rather drama free zone. I'm a pretty chilled person, and ranting and raging about how not drama free my life is is a waste of time and frankly a waste of your time!

So until I've settled back down in London, and my life changes from this...

to this...

and mainly this..

Bye for now sweeties. :)

  (Anyways, don't you have anything better to do than snoop into my life?)

What I'm  YOU Should Listening To: Lilly Allen- Fuck You

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Wednesday, 20 August 2014

Hairdresser with a Death Wish

Being super bored of my life at the moment, I thought much change is needed to help me get out of this rut. What does a girl do? Cut that hairrrrr (Mistake #1). I tend to have this pattern with my hair... I like it long... really long. But every so often (which normally is this time of year) I go for a 'drastic' change and chop it just longer than shoulder length. Having noticed this trend, I decided to not hack off my long locks. I went to the hair dressers... asked for a trim and told him to do what he thought would be a nice change- I suggested a colour change, perhaps some waves? (Mistake #2).

The outcome? Lets just say I was not too pleased. Two and a half hours later, $2,000 HKD later... I look up into the mirror and I feel like Brad Pitt in Troy. I mean he rocked it in that film- I still remembering the whole class swooning over the scene when he was ass naked (awkward now thinking about how it must have looked from the eyes of our Classics teacher in Year 8... cringe). Anyways... back to the subject (I do do that often dont I? My trail of thoughts always going off in tangents), Brad rocked the hair... me... well I'm no Brad Pitt.

Another comparison of my experience would be Mad Madam Mim from Sword of the Stone.... It-is-that-bad.

1. Living my super chilled life with amazing long hair...

2. ...Oh shits about to go down...

3. ...Shit happens.


(It then went into a horrid horrid perm... I honestly cannot express how gross my hair is right now. Im sure it'll look better in a month when it grows out a little more.)

(best photo of my hair... honestly... it looks 50 times worse in real life :'( )

Aside from that...

1. Been attending some music classes- well actually DJ classes. Im not half bad so I'm definitely going to continue this after I finish my beginners course in Hong Kong. 2 more courses until I'm a proper DJ bitches

2. It has been raining for a couple of days in HK now... not ideal (but thats another post sometime in the near future)

(If only rainy days ended up like this... swoon at the notebook)

3. Tempted to get inked. WAHHH my brains like YOLO do it... my heads like kelly... NO... youre going to regret it in two years. What to do? INKINKINKINKINK

Moms like...

And I'm like...

What I'm Listening To: Classic- MKTO

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Saturday, 16 August 2014

Dear Friends,

Apologies for being slightly MIA this week. I haven't have much to say.. its the same old same old. I've been having good days and bad days but nothing unusual. I've been rather inactive on social media lately, avoiding facebook and twitter.. here. I just didn't have the heart to see things that upset me. Mainly life revolving around a certain someone. As well as that... my blog has picked up a rather lot of views globally, mainly Hong Kong so I can't help but feel that all my friends are reading this, and not quite sure how I feel about it either... (not as down low as I'd prefer). Anyhow, you all would be happy to know that I've actually bought a diary and started to rant on that instead (no more calling people out here)...

... unless you're really pissing me off.. then I will have no reservations in my opinions. 

But yeh, things were becoming unbearable for me in Hong Kong- I've been in bed for coming up to a month now. That sucks... I feel like i've been cheated of my summer. And what sucks the most is that some dickhead is having a great one... well I've been told by several people who keep asking me who these people are and why he's always with this certain someone who I really don't give a flying fuck about. (Channeling my inner Zen now before I rape the fuck out of this situation because I am fuming).

Basically my summer has been shit. The week I finished my internship I ended up in bed crying for a month (compared to the pathetic 3 days someone else was sulking for)... but then again how I'm handling it may seem pathetic. But lol I'd rather have everyone see me as pathetic then a heartless dickface who I regret ever meeting.... (inner Zen inner Zen)

ANYWAYS.. I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do with my flight to New York City coming up in two weeks... anyone fancy a Premium Economy (sorry Im not loved enough to travel business so i guess you'll have to slum it out) ticket return from London? Should have used the money to buy myself a pair of Loubs... shoes never let me down.

I had a tough first day in Thailand... I went a day earlier on my own to collect my feelings before my mom flew out to join me. She literally dragged me out of bed and sent me off to Thailand (.. best mom ever... maybe I should sulk more... Maldives next?) It was fun to escape my life... Thailand seemed so simple. I was thoroughly enjoying my trip until my Aunt was explaining her lovely history about how she and her husband tied the knot, and how she wasn't the slightest bothered that her husband has been working in partnership with his longterm ex for years and they're all best friends. Weird but so happy for them... (however bittersweet to me as it brought back a lot of unpleasant memories "find one example in the world" blha blah b;lhablhabla... literally everything you've said to me is like absolute bullshit in my head right now).

A few photos from Thailand... will do a post tomorrow about it when my eyes are less puffy. :)


I can't wait for school to start. New year.. new friends. And when i'm on my turf... you better not expect anything to be okay. I tried to be friends... I was the only one trying to sort it out because I knew we'd have to study with each other... but honestly... you're dead to me.

I just can't believe that someone can hurt me so badly.. I'm generally a strong person and I've been there for everyone. I remember a  conversation with S earlier this summer whilst some boys were playing football.. and she was explaining how she wasn't in a relationship because she hasn't met anyone who was worth the pain of a breakup.. and I looked up at my man boy (.. urgh DIE) and said.. "don't worry, when you're not looking it'll come in the most unexpected ways. I used to think like you but I was so wrong".... I am literally laughing now. I really want to have this conversation again and be like FUCK THAT I was stupid. Hahha

"You live alone, you die alone. And everything in between is just a distraction"- The Art of Getting By


1. Can't wait to leave

2. But I'll miss my Grandparents :(

3. Sofa bound again after my trip

4. Still fuming... even more angry at a certain someone

5. Im clearly a bigger person so I'll be civil when I encounter you... but thats pretty much it. Im just being friendly and civil because Im a nice person... but inside... if i'm not fuming... I prey for the day that I honestly have no feeling, no anger... nothing. Just a person I used to know. Because for me to still be mad I care... and i cannot wait for the day I honestly don't even care.

6. Im being force fed. Apparently a diet of dragon fruit and boiled vegetables is not sufficient enough... so now I feel gross and disgusting as Im literally being force fed carbs carbs carbs carbs...

kill. me. now.

goodbye. body.

7. God send somoene over who knows how to change the setting on Now TV so the language is in English.. that way I can actually select and watch shows more than TLC. There is only so much cake boss I can watch.

What I'm Listening to: Hold Me Down ft. Revier- Mansionair

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